In the first chapter i describe one of my first forays into the joys of naive sexual play with other boys my age.
STEWART AND WHAT WE TAUGHT EACH OTHER.
Stewart and I were inseparable friends during our early years growing up.
Although we went to the same school we lived vastly different lives at home. I grew up in very middle class suburbia while he lived on a sprawling farm, where we spent many, many days exploring the dams, fields and forests of the property, carefree with no adults to supervise, watch over us or tell us what to do.
One summer’s day his father suggested that on our wanderings we go for a swim in the dam near the rear holding paddock to cool off, as it was shallower and less dangerous than the others closer by.
So off we went, two boys looking for an adventure, hiking all those miles to reach our destination. By the time we arrived we were hot, sweaty and covered in dust.
“Last one in’s a rotten egg,” yells Stewart as he removes all his clothes and jumps in.
I was a bit shocked as I thought we would be swimming in our undies but took them off and jumped in too. We swam and played, jumped in and out, slid in the mud and were having a great time when he said “Matt, what’s that on the end of your dick?”
I stopped, looked down and then looked at him. To me it was obvious that he was circumcised and I wasn’t.
“Mum says that it’s the skin I was born with and I have to make sure I keep clean under it.” I said.
“What’s under it? He asked.
“Same as you”, I said and rolled my foreskin back to show the head of my penis.
He laughed and said “Hey you have a dick in there, can I try poking it out?”
I lay on my back in the mud on the side of the dam. Stewart sat beside me, took my small dick in his hand and slowly pulled the foreskin back only to release it and watch it go back to its original position.
He smiled and did it again, giggling as he so often did.
It was like a new toy to him and it was a very new feeling for me. The more he did it the more this feeling increased until my dick started to stiffen. I had had erections before and didn’t know why they happened, but now I realised that I could also get one by someone playing with my penis.
He laughed. “Look it’s getting hard, see if you can make mine go hard too”
I reached over and touched his dick. “There’s nothing to pull up and down”, I said, but I needn’t have worried, as his dick was already getting harder.
We spent the rest of the afternoon playing with each other’s penises, seeing how fast we could get them to go hard and then watching them go soft again. Over the next year or so at every chance we got we would play with each other’s dicks. We even build a cubby house for this, that we called the “Show me yours no adults private club”.
One day he said, “We should get some girls down here”.
“Yeah”’ I said but didn’t really mean it. I had no interest in having girls in here and even less in seeing their dicks.
About 6 months later I arrived at the farm on a Saturday for our regular weekend play time. I was so excited. Lately I’ve been looking forward to our time in secret more and more.
“Quick come down to the cubby”, he said grabbing my hand and pulling me out the door. My heart was pounding, he is just as excited as me and can’t wait to get our dicks out and begin playing with each other I thought.
We arrived at the cubby house and Stewart pulled the blanket that we used for a door aside. As my eyes adjusted to the darkness inside I saw his sister and a friend of hers sitting there. I was puzzled. Why were they here?
“You said we should get some girls so I got some girls.” he said.
I was scared, I really didn’t want to do this but they insisted. “Ok, first Stewart and Ginny” said Linda, Stewarts sister. So Linda and I went outside while they stayed inside and did whatever they did with each other. A few minutes later they came out and Ginny looks at me and says “Now you”.
Inside Ginny sits opposite me and pulls her pants down, and there I am staring at this tiny vagina. I’m not sure what to do and I want to leave but I’m afraid of what the others will say so I undo my fly and pull out my penis. She looks at it for a while and then goes “Now it’s Linda’s turn”.
We exit and watch Linda and Stewart go in the cubby and all we can hear is laughing and giggling, about 5 minutes later Stewart comes out and motions for me to enter. When I do Linda is standing there naked from the waist down, she looks the same as Ginny did but to me they both look like there is something missing between their legs.
I want to go home, I don’t like being here anymore. The girls are laughing at something and I’m sure it’s about me.
Apparently Stewart’s dick got hard when they both touched it and I wouldn’t touch theirs or let them touch mine.
Then I heard it.
“Matt’s got something wrong with his, did you see all that skin on it. How ugly was that? I’m so glad he didn’t make me pull it like Stewart did. Yuck, I would be sick”.
I didn’t know what to do so I ran back to the farm and told his father I wanted to go home. He asked what was wrong and I said, “Nothing, I just want to go home”.
I sat alone in my room that night and cried my absolute heart out. It was then that I vowed never, ever to show a girl, or let a girl see my dick again.